― Lao Tzu
Little Finn is holding his own today. He has been able to sleep almost all day and has had very little stimulation - which he needs in order for his brain to develop and to decrease stress. I had the best morning. The nurse let me pick him up while she changed the linens in his isolette (and she included a stylish bamboo number I brought that smells like me :) ) . I was beyond excited to do this! He had his eyes open and we just looked at each other for a while. I'm not sure what he can see but he does know my voice and looks toward me when I speak. My heart just melts.
Our plan is to continue making the most of each day we have with Finn. We do not know what his future holds but we have so many special moments with him now. I love staring at his perfect face and will just keep reading him his books and loving him. Kyle and I read so many things about preemies and there are many studies that show better outcomes when both parents are involved with their preemie. We will hold onto that and keep our chins up knowing we are doing what we can for him.
I heard a song today on the way to the hospital that brought tears to my eyes - it was so appropriate for our current situation: it is an older song by Sara Bareilles called, "The Light". Part of the lyrics say:
Nevermind what I knew
Nothing seems to matter now
Who I was without you
I can do without.
No one knows where it ends
How it may come tumbling down -
but I'm here with you now. I'm with you now
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